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future thinker - song story
music

future thinker - song story

written in a windowless basement, dreaming up a future with beck. the acoustic 2022 version grew into the spacious album cut on second half
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second half - album
music

second half - album

11 songs from the second half of my life - leaving church, rebuilding identity, and finding room for joy.
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conditional “freedom” isn’t freedom
deconstruction

conditional “freedom” isn’t freedom

why the “you’re free to do X” script isn’t freedom: lawmaking, supremacy, and conditional love.
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jason normore, leaving church, finding art
deconstruction

jason normore, leaving church, finding art

i used to scroll past pieces like this.
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hit delete
second-half

hit delete

i covered a shame tool with the second half logo. i don’t delete my life anymore.
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the ride - album
music

the ride - album

a worship album i made with two close friends in a little prayer room i don’t belong to anymore. ten songs, a live choir, a lot of devotion, and a version of me that was all-in.
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rapture notes, age 11
religious-trauma

rapture notes, age 11

at eleven, i filled my bible with rapture warnings: blood seas, 135-lb hail, “we then fight the devil.” this is what i was taught, and why it still bothers me.
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safe at home (дома в безопасности) - ep
music

safe at home (дома в безопасности) - ep

may 2021 ep about adoption, abandonment, and what “home” meant during my last year in full-time ministry.
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